Category: Personal
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wish you were here
it is 1am and i am thinking about death again. grief has sunk its gnarly teeth into my flesh and the bones and sharp edges are here to stay forever, i think. perhaps they will erode with time, or perhaps their grip will grow even stronger instead. i’ve made peace with it, but that hasn’t…
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but what if I just rip out of her throat and let eternity slip right down the hole?
I am… very tired. I was able to spend my Saturday attempting to relax, but I slipped away to my hometown early Sunday morning for my grandmother’s visitation. The room she was in was humid and putrid so it didn’t take long before I was extremely overstimulated, but it was nice to see family. My…
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Help I’m Alive
I’ve been really struggling with how to word all of this since I got the news. Even now I’m dreading putting actual emphasis on how real it all is, but my more messy thoughts are being kept in a journal anyway. A couple of nights ago I got a text that my Gramma was in…
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Gender is a Fuck
Ever since acquiring my first chest binder, I have been absolutely ravaged by new gender shit and it’s driving me a bit bonkers. I knew I was going to be more comfortable in my skin with it, but I didn’t realize just how agonizing it would be to be without it on. I’ve been out…
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